Hanging out my dirty laundry

Mon, 08 Sep 2008 06:22:05 GMT

So i've been crazy busy.. and well.. am gonna be for like the next 5 years or so.. heh.. But uni is great .. and i've made a new friend called Peter.
I met him at this collage-bar-thngy and really felt like he was someone i wanted to be friends with, so i just kinda asked him "hey.. Do you wanna be friends, and drink Tea and watch movies and draw pictures and stuff? ".. and he was like " Yeah, that sound great.. you wanna come to my place and listen to music and sleep over" ..

So that's really cool! ..

But yeah.. more about the new Uni life later.. I'm late for class now!

Wed, 27 Aug 2008 06:58:43 GMT

The thing about University intro- week is that you have to be friends with everyone. And just that makes me sick. Seriously, i don't wanna go back. I'm absolutely shitting myself. I hate having to pretent that i like everyone when i don't really know them.

And i know that it's only intro week, and the second day, and that you can't judge people that fast ... but really, going there, i thought that people would be.. more like me or something, but it turns out that they are just as retaraded as everyone else my age.

I've gotten a lot more mature the last year, and seriously.. i don't like brainless drinking games and other stupid stuff like that. I just went there to learn something.. When are we gonna start doing that?

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 17:42:21 GMT

so first day át the university. which was very anti-climax..

it was really fun, but it wasn't bad either.

All the first year students were suppose to go clubbing tonight,(or actually we're supose to go clubbing each nght in this week) but i'm really not feeling up to it. So i'm satying home.. I don't need to spend that much time with my new classmates.

We all came in about 10 am this morning and i left at 6 pm.. i couldn't really take more socializing ..!

But it was okay!!! The classes and the teachers seemed SUPER AWESOME!! I can't wait to start the actual studying, and getting this intro shit over and done with!

the thing about moms

Mon, 25 Aug 2008 07:18:50 GMT

You know.. I've been reading a lot entries on my flist where peole rants about their moms.. In a bad way.. It kinda makes me feel sad..

i love my mom so much, but i do remember a time when felt like she was the most daft person on the face of earth.. But then when i was 16 or so, one day i just kinda thought "woow.. my mom has changed.. she's like super cool now".. And really.. my mom didn't change a bit, that was all me, getting over my teenage-i'm so fucking pissed-phase.

So it makes me sad in a way, when i read aout all these girls going through the exact same phase, treating their mothers like crap. And i'm not saying this to put anyone out or anything, it's the way most teenagers are with their parents. But in my perfect world i would like if we didn't need all of that.. because in the end moms are great - most of them anyway.

I know that there are some really bad appels out there - i've heard the children of crappy moms tell about it, and that's not a phase. That's just super bad parenting. But i'm finding it hard to believe that all the teenagers on Livejournal have bad mothers. I know that there are some, but mostly i think the moms are okay, and the children are being teenagers.

I'm not blaming, nor pointing fingers.. Just maybe politely pointing out that one day every teenager will grow into a adult, and when that time comes they'll have to deal with their parents. So maybe it's a good idea to keep a least a little respect.

Again. I know. It's fucking unbearable to be a teenager and live with your parents.. but in the end my parents have saved my from going down big time more than once.

Everything normal parents do, they do for their children. So keep that in mind the next time you call your mother a bitch to her face.

[ disclaimer: the worlds above are an expression of the thougts and ideas of maincane only. no need to get all pissy about it ]

boring....

Sat, 23 Aug 2008 16:13:12 GMT

OMG! I'm soooo bored.

Also.. my flist being really annoying too.. so i'm not only bored, i'm also pissed off. sucks.

oh yeah, i guess..

Thu, 21 Aug 2008 19:45:20 GMT

I was feeling sadly depressed this morning... so i made homemade jam..
oh and i cleaned my entire house, baked some bread, made stewed apples and went shopping for food and a light bulb too..

I don't know why.. but doing house wife stuff - cleaning, baking, picking appels, making jam, cooking - somehow fights off that really stupid feeling of sadness..

It must have looked so weird.. Me standing in the kitchen making jam with my misfits-shirt and my mohawk.. hahha! .

Goodmorning ladies!

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 07:38:22 GMT

For the last month or so, i've developed this very weird craving in the morning. Some mornings i'll just wake up and NEED to hear Sinead o'connor's "Nothing compares to you" .. It's absolutely stupid, but a fact never the less.

I wouldn't mind it so much if it was a like a happy feel good song, but no.. it has to be the fucking saddest song in the entire world. *sigh*
I hope it'll go away soon.

In other news..

- I'm at my sisters place, been hanging out here since Sunday.. So i'm going home today. It's been really nice to see her, but it's gonna be really good to get home too.

- You guys should really really listen to this song. It's like suuuuper nice. It's from a movie called ARN.(and it's nowhere near as good as the books, but it's a nice movie)
I just saw it yesterday. (here's the IMDB link http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0837106/
You can find the song here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gH-nywfotBc

Tue, 12 Aug 2008 05:23:03 GMT

just showing off the hair. because i like it so much.

So two pictures not taken with a shitty cam phone.

In profile. And seriously.. Would you look at the mohawk.. It's crazy!

.. so yeah.

heh..

Mon, 11 Aug 2008 06:09:18 GMT

Where do you guys buy band shirt and merch online?

I haven't found a place i'd like to use again, so i was wondering where everybody else is buying their stuff..

ALso, HIM makes the most fugly band shirts ever. Really. I've been a wanting a him shirt for a year, but haven't been able to find ONE shirt that i liked. I would jsut leik one with the heartagram in a sigle color, "HIM" on it somewhere and nothing else on the shirt.. but yeah.

Soo..??

I'm bold. I'm both ways.

Sat, 09 Aug 2008 13:00:10 GMT

Girlies.. I bring you

Sorry for the bad pic.. I forgot my camera at work, and had to use my phone.. But still.. You get the idea.

MOTHER FUCKING SHAVED HEAD!

Yep. t's shaved. With a razor and all. It feels soooo strange.. Like nothing i've ever felt before.. It's so weird.. When the wind blows o my head it kinda tickels.. lol. It's awesome.. and i love it.

better pics on monday when i get my camera back. Promise.

not again..

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 06:13:35 GMT

So i love coffee, but i don't think coffee loes me so much..

You guys don't know this but i'm a clutz. Like for real. I always trip on shit, or fall over or something, and lately my clutzyness has involved coffee.

Like i had cup of coffee standing on the floor next to the sofa. Then i threw at pillow to the floor and knocked over my cup. Coffee all over the carpet.
or ...
Had a cup standing on a chair. then i had to pee, so i got up and walked straight into the chair, knocking both chair and coffee to the ground. Massive stain on the carpet. AGAIN..
or..
was playing with Ruben at teh foosebal table, and knocked over yet another cup of coffee with my elbow. That's gonna stain.
but..
this morning really takes the prize..
I was walking through my living room with a cup of coffee in my hand, going for a smoke outside, when i fell .. like full on fell and of course splattered coffee everywhere. And there was nothing to trip over, nothing but think air. But yeah, i fell anyway.

ALso, these *points upwards* all happened within this week. And it's only wedensday.

My dad suggested i'd get one of those cups little babies have. Like with a lid and handles.. i dunno.. i'm actually thinking about getting one of those.

Random on radio Bam

Tue, 29 Jul 2008 16:24:34 GMT

Oh. It was so good. Ryan was on radio Bam. seriously so good, i almost cried.. it was to good to hear him make jokes and be a dork! I missed him so much, and oh. Just go listen to it..

My heart stopped when Bam and Ryan talked about the gay videos of them on youtube. It was awesome.

PURE DUGERA I SAY

Fri, 25 Jul 2008 04:49:36 GMT

Write three facts, two quirks, and two habits about you, then tag 8 people to do it too.

1) Fact: I can't go a day without my computer.

2) Fact: I frequenty have cold sores.

3) Fact: I call my mom and sister at least 3 times a week.

4) Quirk: I have a morning rutine. Everything i do in the morning have to be done a certain way and at a certain time. If not my day will suck ass!

5) Quirk: I scratch my hair like cray when i'm tired.

6) Habit: i always have a smoke before going to bed.

7) Habit: .. cant think of any?

I don't really wanna tag people.. So if you haven't done this consider yourself tagged.

yeah..

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 06:08:19 GMT

My parents are coming to see me this weekend. It's gonna be nice.
I really like my parents.. They are funny and smart, make me laugh .. and yeah, they're my parents.
On the down side, i have to clean because they're comning.. that sucks a little.. but yeah, whatever!

I finally catched up on some sleep. Which was good! So good! Even though i broke on of my very firm rules. No Napping during the day.

Night time is for sleeping, parties and sex.
Day time is for everything else - and NOT for sleeping (both parties and sex is okay during the day lol)

But i did anway. I napped for two hours yesterday, and went to bed at 10 pm.. which is sad for a girl my age, but god i was tired. So i sleept a full night of 9 hours. Seriously, i don't function well without sleep.

So now i have to leave for work in 20 minutes, and YAY! Just two more days till weekend. Its gonna be so good!!

Seriously going nuts here!

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 03:40:37 GMT

Oh my fucking god. I got up at 04.50 am today. Yesterday it was 05.50 and monday 04.50 also. I'm seriously not build for getting up this early. ´The hours i work is really driving me nuts.. And i have 3 more weeks of this shit. Getting up at fucking 5 'o clock in the morning.. WHo the fuck gets up this early?
Also, i don't think it's a good thing to swap sleep with coffee.. As i'm not getting enough sleep, i just drink more coffee. I'm gonna go into a caffeine shock.. and go nuts.

On a better note i got my Dirty Sanchez dvd box set.. It's awesome and super gross, yet so fucking funny. I'm really just love that show.

Okay. now i have to go to work. Horrible i say. horrible.

Who's house? My house!!

Sun, 20 Jul 2008 14:14:38 GMT

Oh man!! Elisabeth and I cleaned our house today.. Not just cleaned but seriously CLEANED! Like all of it.. also the creepy small room that's (was) filled with cobwebs and whatnot.

Also, i'm feeling a tad bit annoyed that Ruby didn't help. No fair, seriously.. He's a slacker.. Lately he's been getting on my nerves a little.
Oh well, He's going to sweden for the next week.. It's be good to get a little break from him, we've been spending SO much time together the last month.. So it's good.

Seriously guys.. you should see my house.. it's fucking spotless!! AWESOME!!! .. oh and i totally cleaned my room too!

the delight!

Fri, 18 Jul 2008 19:13:38 GMT

You guys know Terry Richardson? Yes..
(If not then look him up.. He's the one who did the cornflakes/milk picture of Bam btw.. )

anyway i just bough a big .. no a huge book with a lot of his photographs. They are gross and pornographic and seriously if i shoud define beauty it would be in the form of his pictures. They are bold and have that special ugky beauty that i love so much.

Now i'm gonna go watch horro movies with Ruby.

Just a theory

Mon, 14 Jul 2008 10:53:40 GMT

Yesterday i cleaned my room. (why yes, i can actually clean.. i just choose not to) and during that i stepped on a nail.

But the stepping on a nail got me thinking. so hear my theory:

First the 2 facts on which i base my question:

1.Once Accidently i hit a nail through a board into my leg. That hurt like fucking hell.

2. I stepped on a nail. didn't hurt that much.

Why does it hurt really bad to get a nail in your leg, but not you foot?

My theory is now that nature is smart. It's more likely that you step on something, than getting it in your leg.

So i'm thinking, in order to keep our ancestors, you know the ones in the cave, with clothes of wolf-fur or whatever, on the move, i think nature made the foot less sensible. And not talking about calloused feet, i'm talking about actual injury in your feet.

If it hurt like fucking hell when you stepped on a rock or a shell or something then the cave-men would just stay home in fear of stepping on something.
Therefore my conclusion is:

Nature made it hurt less when you step on a nail because otherwise people would be lazy and never go anywhere.

Of couse.. The problem kinda solved itself when we invented shoes.

Also, i wondering where the nail came from. Don't think i can come up with an theory on that... and that would actually be more useful than the cave-man theory..

... just don't go there..

Sat, 12 Jul 2008 13:46:21 GMT

OH DUDE!!! I just read the WORST Dean/Sam phone-sex fic ever. I couldn't even finish it.. God, i hate when bad writers ruin my fangirl mood with poorly written fics. I need my porn to be written in sensuel words. And i just do.

Damn, i'm gonna go bake a fucking cake now. That girl totally ruined it for me. goddamn!

Could someone rec me GOOD J2 fic? Both rps and winchest is fine..

j2

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 22:59:13 GMT

I forget how much i love Jensen and Jared! i really do.

Does anyone have a complete download or upload for the LA convention..??

I would really like to see it not chopped in a million pieces..

pretty please?

wallpapers!

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 07:06:39 GMT

So, maybe as a delayed b-day prestent someone is gonna make me some Bloodhound gang wallpapers. I can't really find any.

And i would so love one that says "I <3 Jimmy Pop" and a picture of Jimmy pop. .. but yeah, up to you..

But help me out??? because.. The bloodhound gang? THE AWESOME!

I don't say it often, but life good today..

Sun, 06 Jul 2008 06:36:02 GMT

Ah..! *happy sigh* I'm at my parents house this weekend, to celebrate my birthday tomorrow, and i think that if there's one place on the earth i could spend my days off work it would be here.

My partens live outside a small village, and there's just no people here. Hardly any cars, and it's just the most perfect spot to place a big white house with a red tiled roof. The garden is filled with flower and green plants by now. It's like comeplete tranquillity, and i'm enjoying being here so much.

I've been reading all day yesterday and again this morning. detective novels about a sweedish detective, Martin Beck, and they are very intertaining. All in all i'm as happy as i get, and really how can you? There's coffee on the thermo, the sun is shining and i have 3 more books before i'm finishe with the series of 10. (i read the other 6 since monday, so yeah, they are really good)

I'm looking forward to my birthday tomorrow, but actually more so to tonight where my sister will come here,a nd we'll have dinner the four of us, like we used to when we all lived in tthis big wonderful house.

You know.. i'm happy right now. It feels good. Now i'm gonna go sit outside in the morning sun and wait for my mom to get out of bed, it still early, and breakfeat wont be for another hour or so.

cracks open a can of beer

Fri, 04 Jul 2008 15:25:36 GMT

OH FRIDAY! How i have longed for you, my love.

I don't hate my job. i like the chidren and the people i work with. But damn it's good not to be there. And well, Kate bought cake today, so that made it nicer.

Sometimes i think i only tell shitty things about my job. That sucks. i have an okay job. The other day a little kid named Jad who is from Turkey came up to me and went :

Jad: I wanna say you something"
Me: Okay, "say" me something
J: you look like a boy
M: haha. yeah i know. It's on purpose
J: Really, why?
M: because i think it looks good.
J : You look like a cool boy.
*J walks off to play with a bike*

hah!

Also, One day Acmed (who is Kurdish) opens the door from the playground, just as i'm about to go out and just says "You're sweet" and runs off. That made me laugh so hard.

And there are tons of little cute stories like that everyday..

So yeah. i don't have my job at all. But damn it's good to have the weekends off!

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 22:47:08 GMT

Seriously, i haven't been all that happy in my last few posts.. but yeah, it's like.. i dunno.. there has just been shit going on..

and i think i'm about to get sick.. i'm been feeling like shit the last couple of days, not really sick, but just feeling uncomfortable all day..

Good thing that it's my birthday on monday.. then i have that to look forward too.

i would rather rip my dick off and throw it in the river..

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 07:00:36 GMT

*sobs* I'm going to the fukcing dentist. In about 40 minutes. And i'll just tell you this:

I don't care about needels, or about doctors, i'm not afraide of hights or sharks or spiders or stuff like that. But for the fucking love of god, i hate going to the dentist. It's a fucking disgusting man who pokes around inside my mouth, and makes me hurt. It sucks, and i hate it. So bad.

I was actually thinking of just calling and telling them i'm sick, but that'll just put it off for a week or so untill they an fit my in again.

Ohhh! I really don't like going to the dentist. At all!!
And he'll just be all retarded and go "ohh, don't worry i'll give you a shot for the pain" WELL!! That fucking hurts too, and then your mouth goes all limp, and it's tickels in this uncomfortable way, and drool is just running uncontrolable!

Oh god, i really really really don't wanna go. And to top it all of i fucking have to pay for it.. (in Denmark all medical care is for free - except for the dentist) and i really don't wanna pay for it, because will.. it's not only unfair, it's also fucking expensive..

There are those that might think that i'm scared of the dentist. But that is not the case... i just really really really dislike it.

I bruhed my teeth like 17 times yesterday, but i really don't think it'll save the 10 fucking holes i have in my teeth. which i have because i hate going to the dentist.

I can't stress this enough : I DON'T WANT TO GO TO THE FUCKING DENTIST!!!
(in fucking caps and everything!)